THIS IS LIKE MENTAL TORTURE................

[En1234]

So, not for the first time I have been on here crying (yes literally) because I have been waiting weeks now for a telephone call to say when I will be starting this new job. My interview was on 27 February, got offered the job on 28 February 2018. I was told initially the starting date was going to be 12 March then that due to work still not being finished in another office, the start dated was going to be put back until April "sometime". I sent an e-mail last week looking for an update and was told there was still nothing confirmed as yet but "we are hoping to have a starting date for you very soon".

I received a telephone call yesterday asking if I would be available to start on 2 April (this coming Monday) or 9 April and I said that I would be "delighted" to start on either date. Neither would be a problem and that I was really looking forward to it. The lady I spoke to said she just had to call the other successful candidates from that day and make sure of their availability and if she could not call me back later that afternoon (yesterday) then she would definitely call me tomorrow (meaning today). As you can imagine, I was walking on air yesterday. I have not been over the door and my phone has been firmly by my side today and yes, you've guessed, no phone call... I feel totally gutted!!!

My friend thinks I am over-reacting and says that this is actually good news "at least it is on the horizon now" but I am in bits because I have not received this phone call. In between waiting for news of this start date I have applied for 4 other jobs, each person has told me they will "call me" an they never did. For one whole month now my life has consisted every day of waiting for phone calls that never come, going for walks I no longer take pleasure in, cooking for my son, (I no longer have an appetite) and crying myself to sleep. I don't know how much more of this I can take and I know this might seem to some like I am being the drama queen but one day I had a really busy, good life and the next, due to a really toxic workmate, I had nothing and I still have nothing. I have no energy and just don't want this life if this is all I have to look forward to... I really don't think I can go through one more week like this, its too much....

I am sorry for droning on but I am thinking that while I am typing this the phone might just ring....

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[hypercat54]

Hi you have plenty not nothing. You have a child you love and a home and the promise of a job on the horizon. I agree with your friend that you are totally obsessing on this. You can't change it so try and relax and make the most of your leisure time. You might be wishing you had more of it very soon.

Try living in the moment and when you start worrying distract yourself. Go out for a walk, read a book, just anything to take your mind of it. The way you are going you will not be fit for any job! x