I wouldn’t say I’ve had a perfect life. I’ve grown in a good family and have had good friends although there’s a twist.
When I was in grade 8 I lost 6 really good friends in a car accident and that broke me. What 13 year old goes to 6 funerals for their friends.
A year past by and the next summer I lost my bestfriend in another car accident and the sad part is I was at the lake and got a text from her saying come over I need to talk to you before I leave (she was going to a rodeo) and I didn’t have any service but the day before she passes away I got a little bit of service and I got her text and I didn’t text her back because I thought I’d see her when I got back but no I didn’t.
The next day I was having lunch at my camper with my family and 8 of my brothers friends, and 3 of my best friends pull up and I got so excited that they came to see me but when I ran up to them they were like no we need to tell you something and they said my friends name and I knew instantly what happened I turned around and dropped to my knees in the middle of the road screaming at the top of my lungs saying “not again” and my dad rushed around the corner and asked what happened and he hugged me so tight and I could see he broke for me.
So yes I was 14 and have been to 7 of my friends funerals.
That’s not all. In 2016 my brother went missing and in January 2017we had a police officer knock on our door saying they have found my brother. He was found in a park buried in snow and I mean this is my breaking point and I just don’t get why this is happening to me. The thing that bugged me the social media the reporters anything that had to do with news because the things they said and told the world some of the details would just be wrong and to be apart of that broke me even more because I know but I can’t match up with the news. I had reporters Facebook messaging me for details the day they released the news came out. They didn’t give us any time of grieving.
What I’m getting at is I am so lost and no one in my life even knows that I’m not okay because I hide it everyday.