I feel like I’m in a rut and have no one to really reach out to. To my friends I’m the dry sarcastic funny one but generally a happy person. At work I have my friends but I always feel like no one really likes me because I am the only woman at work and at time I guess to them I come across as bossy. Since finishing school last year I haven’t felt like I have any reason to be anymore. I’m constantly sad and anxious and I can never sleep. I feel like I need constant validation from everyone around me but by doing so I feel like I’ve become such a burden to all those around me. I’m supposed to be the strong one but it hurts. While I’d never want to take my own life there’s plenty of times I wish that a car would smash into mine or something of that nature and it would just be over. Sometimes I feel like it would be better for everyone if I just disappeared and they could all go on with their lives without the burden of me.