It’s a terrible life

[Brokenstrings]

I never asked for it, but I’m stuck in this existence. I can’t kill myself because it’s “selfish”, but it’s ok for me to carry on living in misery.

I’ve been through the system before, ended up being sectioned against my will, I don’t want to go there again.

If I’m on a plane I pray for it to crash. When I’m driving I think about turning the wheel and driving straight into a wall.

This is my life.

But I should be oh so grateful right?

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Brokenstrings. Wishing you a very warm welcome, where I hope that you will make some new friends here on our very supportive and caring forum. Our members are very understanding as they too are travelling on their own unique journey, and are very willing to reach out and help others who are in need of a kind listening ear .You sound very low and angry with your life at the moment and I am very sorry that you are struggling so much. Depression is a serious illness, just like any other illness physical or psychological and can take time to feel better. I am so sorry that you were sectioned against your will, that must have been a very difficult time for you, and I can understand your fear and anxiety now perhaps of asking for help. But you sound as though you really are in need of Professional Help and support. It really may be in your best interest to make an appointment to see your GP. Perhaps support from your local mental health team could be arranged for you, and perhaps your GP would consider offering you a course of medication to help you through this very difficult period in your life. Talking therapies may help you too, as it is helpful to explore your worries and anxieties and low moods, and in time learn how to cope better with everyday issues. You may like to take a look at the pinned posts section, where you can access help and support from the Crisis Helplines. Also, if you are feeling very low and vulnerable contact the Samaritans on Freephone.........116 123......who are open every day of the year. Keep yourself safe as help is out there for you, so please do get the help and support that you need and deserve. Please take good care of yourself and let us know how you are getting on.........sending you my kindest regards and very warm wishes and hope that in time you will begin to feel a little better in yourself with support....

[Denhans]

Hi broken strings ( Your name reminds me of a song I love) Anyway, I read your post... and at this precise moment, that’s how I feel! I can’t be bothered with positivity. I feel trapped. 😩 But I know I will pull myself out of eventually because like you said I am being selfish and have OT pull myself together!! Apparently it’s that easy .... NOT 🙏🙏

[anxiousalexis in reply to Denhans]

Yes! I can relate! I feel trapped as well! It’s just a fight we have to get through

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Hello, and welcome to the community.

I'm truly sorry to hear that you're feeling so stuck at the moment. I have been there myself; I was sectioned on several occasions due to suicide concerns/attempts.

I know it really doesn't seem like it now, but there *is* hope. I can promise you with the right care and treatment, life will start to look up. MAS_Nurse has given some great pointers and advice - not much more I can add in that department

Take care, remember there's a group of good folk willing to listen and give advice here.

Tom