I have suffered a mood disorder for some time now and it effects me massively. The depression can get really bad and I have tried many different types of anti depressants with them helping initially then the depression gets worse to the stage I can no longer stand it,then I have to come off the meds altogether. When I come off the meds I feel better for a while then my depression gets bad again then I go back on them. Basically going round in circles. My diagnosis is cyclothymia were I can be hypomania too. I enjoy being hypomanic but it takes it's toll on my physical health too.