hello

[laff]

Hello ,

been suffering with depression for many years, tried most meds and most treatments. I normally come out of a depression but am struggling at the moment and have been for 18months

I go out as I have to I got a little puppy before my episode started, I wouldn't bother

looking for a magic spark

[Iluvhorses]

Maybe you could look into some spiritual practices if you don't already have any. I'm not implying any particular faith because obviously you can choose what you want to believe and what not to believe. Good luck!

[laff in reply to Iluvhorses]

Thank you mbvu

[BonnieSue]

Is the puppy/now dog any help as a companion? Or it it just another responsibility? Sorry, I don't follow you re: looking for a magic spark too well. Have to agree with the comment that if you don't have a mature spiritual life with your benevolent creator you may want to develop that relationship. It seems that may be the only stone you've left unturned. Since religion isn't supposed to be discussed here that's all I'll say unless you PM me. 

I'm sorry to hear that you've tried so many things and are having troubles still. I'm surprised the cbt therapy isn't helping you---have you gone recently? Or is it maybe time to restart that? Another thought---have you been on a tricyclic lately? Sometimes when nothing else works going on the old meds is the right move for us--we don't know until we try. I'm seeing it bring results for a son of mine where nothing else has worked. It's rather amazing and much needed. No SSRI, MAOI or even ECT worked for him. 

I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and am wishing you the best and a turn around in health.

[laff in reply to BonnieSue]

Thanks SueSz

My little dog Daisy is a good little companion. As regards religion , I was brought up believing in God and still do , but like everything else I have little or no motivation to do anything

I haven't done any cbt recently as I haven't got the concentration for it currently

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers , combined with my mum I should be doing well

It seems such a waste of life

I hope your son continues to do well

x

[BonnieSue in reply to laff]

It IS a waste of life if you can't concentrate on anything and have no motivation to do anything. That's the nature of profound depression and you have to fight it no matter how weary you are of it. You can get over this hump if you force yourself into CBT, as an example, and lean on the counselor to lead the therapy at this difficult time. A decent counselor can draw you out with some cooperation from you. They do need to see you at your worst--it helps them to know what you need and what your problems are far better than you coming in for an app't. all chipper and looking great.

How about meds? Have you tried absolutely everything or are you too weary to keep trying? You want help or you wouldn't have come to this site and written a post here. I'm urging you onward---push yourself to make a step forward because it's worth it and YOU'RE worth it. Make that call to the right Dr. to keep trying to find the right med or combination of meds for you. 

Don't simply give up--that's what the disease tells you to do and that's the lie of this disease. Don't give in to it. There's a great life still to be lived beyond this pit you are living in now. I've been where you are and life is good for me now. Even though I've just lost my husband to cancer I am strong and handling it well. THAT'S recovery. And so many other people have done the same. But you must make the phone calls to the right Drs. and keep the appointments. One day at a time, don't borrow tomorrow's troubles for today.

Come here to get a boost of motivation and support. PM me if you want to. I'm on your side if you'll let me.  I've been through h*ll and back a few times and still my life is good and I'm glad I didn't throw it all away by giving up on myself. Rest if you are weary but please make the necessary phone calls to set yourself up for CBT and Drs. app'ts. for trying to find medication and so forth that will help you.

Don't think each thing will end in defeat and therefore you don't start them and try them out. That's a roadblock to success in anything. 

Sending you a huge ((((((HUG)))))) to get you through the day. Be kind to yourself but also make yourself take responsibility for your mental health.

[laff in reply to BonnieSue]

Hi SueSz

Thank you so much for your reply , you are a kind and lovely person , thank you so much for your thoughtful words

I will make an appointment with the Drs although I have not responded well to meds previously

I will pm , thanks again for your support

[BonnieSue in reply to laff]

:o)