Confused and Alone

[nursejillian]

Hey all,

This is my first post. I've been really struggling a lot this past month. Over the past two years I've been struggling greatly mentally and I was seeing a counselor weekly while at school. She wanted me to work on self compassion over break, but Ive recently had other problems. My mood goes 0 - 100 and sometimes I even have panic attacks. Every thing I think and feel is so real and no one can tell me otherwise. I have a lot of stress right now and I snap almost instantly. My boyfriend is very supportive, but I take a lot out on him and he gets frustrated. I told him I feel alone and like I do everything for everyone else and no one can even see how much I'm struggling. I tried to explain to him the things I'm stressed about, but he doesn't seem to understand. Lately I have been super irritable, sensitive, and even losing sympathy for others. Does anyone have any advice?

Thank you.

[sweetiepye]

I can only give you examples of my own experiences in no particular order. Anxiety lies to you. The fear you feel is from the adrenalin coursing through your body triggered by your fearful thoughts. Change your thoughts. It takes practice , but you can over come it. The rest of what you write is common for someone going through an illness, depression, anxiety. You are probably angry on some level for having your life disrupted . People who haven't experienced this really don't understand what you're going through , but you can't blame them , but you probably can't count on them for long. At some point they expect you to pull yourself together. If only we could. My advice is to see a Doctor if you haven't, consider medication ,it does help , therapy while difficult is a valuable tool. You will feel more in control and less helpless if yo do these things. I have been where you are now and I have walked through the fear to the other side. You can do this. Pam