To be honest, not sure why I'm bothering with this but then figure why not.
Been struggling with coping, as most people, for as long as I can remember and very much have overactive guilt-gland and persecution complex to boot. I'm currently lucky if I get more than 2 hours sleep which gives me plenty of time to sit, think and realise just how much damage I've done to absolutely everything around me.
Cutting doesn't help anymore and whilst thinking about going further, I know that I'm too useless to do that properly and don't want the attention. It makes things much more difficult and false sympathy sticks in the gullet.
I've tried going to the doctors, which in fairness, sends me on to a place that made things that much worse but apparently there is nothing else. I'm just wondering if people ever find it gets easier?