What to do!

[ang95]

i worry too much, i cry too much, i'm always feeling angry and sometimes i feel like i'm raging, having bad dreams, dizziness, i start shaking when i feel so pressured, my chest hurt, my left arm feels weird..

sometimes i experience a lot of emotions in the same day

And i know why, I know why i'm feeling like this.. there is reasons, the reasons are losing the best person who was with me since i can remember, i'm in an unhealthy relationship, not close to my family, no friends, college stress and i'm that kind of person who worry too much, overthinking everything...

Probably i'm just gonna stay here until i get completely destroyed and then everything will end

i feel like i drowned in an inch of water..i'm so weak i hate myself

Even when i'm writing this i feel that i'm gonna annoy everyone and probably this doesn't worth sharing

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi ang95, and welcome to the forum. Please remember that you are valued and your posts are worth sharing. This is a caring community where you will receive support from other members who understand how you are feeling. You say you are able to identify the reasons you feel this way. That is a very good start. Have you received any help to address these things that are causing you distress? Is there a counsellor at your college you can talk to to help address the stress with college work? They are trained to help students who are experiencing difficulties. They can also talk to you about other things that are upsetting you. Take small steps and you will get there. We all need some support sometimes. It is not a sign of weakness. Have a look at some of the pinned posts which may be helpful to you. Let us know how you are getting on. Take care and best wishes.

[ang95 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Hi, thank you so much for the support

well, we don't have a counselor but i will try to figure out what to do

step by step and everything will be fine, hopefully

[Hidden]

I think the same..Im just gonna stay here like this until I'm totally destroyed..glad you wrote in..

[ang95 in reply to Hidden]

Wait what! NO!

Don't follow my steps! don't be like me

I'm sure you can go through whatever you are dealing with

I didn't mean to bring anyone down

I'm sorry

please don't stay there until you totally destroyed, we can fix anything somehow

we are strong we just didn't figure it out yet

[Frozenimages]

That was a really good reply. You have the strength in you. You saw another in distress and immediately gave them encouraging words, ones that you believe. I use to feel the same. On the really bad days, I have some feeling like that. My relationship isn't one of fairy tales either. My husband has BPD and there are days where I don't think I can make it through. Feel like you're suffocating, like you just want to run away from all the pain, do whatever you can to make it stop.

We moved far away from family and friends. It was too stressful and hard to be around them.

I hear you on just wanting to stay in one spot till everything falls apart. Just wanting the feeling to end. Hating myself for not being able to do better, feeling like my troubles are a burden to family and friends, like the wouldn't understand. Like I am trying hard to keep above water and just keep sinking.

All of those thoughts we have that are negative, they are wrong. We are not weak, we are not a burden, we are not annoying. As you said, we are strong and we just haven't figured this out yet. These feelings do not define us. They are not set in stone where it's always going to be this way. I find I have to constantly talk kindly to myself, give myself self compassion. It's not selfish or conceited to love yourself. If we don't respect and give our self the love we know we deserve, we can't expect others to do the same.

This forum is a great place to reach other to get encouragement and positive feedback. None of us are alone in our suffering. I hope that your days get a little brighter.

[ang95 in reply to Frozenimages]

hi,thank you so much for the support, this mean a lot to me

We can all get through this life and fight for what we love. i keep telling myself that there is always a solution, there is always a way to make things right

Hopefully everything will be fine

You are an amazing person

take care ♥

[timer555]

If you haven't already, you need to see your Doc, and get some advice, there are a lot of services out there like talking therapies, counselling, short term medications from your doc , you really have so many problems, but with proper counselling and other support therapies, you can get CBT which helps you to see yourself in a different light, cos you don't feel good about yourself...these thoughts can make you feel bad very bad so get some help starting with your Doc.