Today

[lil_avocado]

I drew my feeling for today..... I’m a bit down. Anyone that wants to talk, please do. I would love some positive energy. I need it. All I can do is cry. I’m trying to hold it together.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Amcclantoc12

Thanks for your beautiful, but very sad drawing. I am so glad you shared this with us, what a creative way of expressing how things are for you.

Perhaps you could tell us a little more about how things are for you and your situation?

Do you have any support? Have you talked with a doctor?

Our members are very supportive, so may be able to offer you more help and information.

Do keep in touch and take care

Best wishes

[lil_avocado in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Thank you. I love art. It’s a great way of self expression and feelings. No, I don’t see a doctor. Sadly, I have no fundings for my medication or counseling. Money is very tight. I’ve been without my meds for about a year now. I struggle with sever anxiety and depression. Today I woke up feeling very very down and low. I’ve gotten out a bit and feel a bit better.

I check in daily and it helps a bit. I love the positive feedback. It always feel good knowing you’re not alone.

Thank you so much!

[marigold22]

You are a talented artist. I do some painting but totally unable to draw

I've read a few of your previous posts. My parents were not loving and my father was emotionally abusive. I am the eldest of three daughters. I'm 66 years old now. I moved to a different area as soon as I was 18 - as a receptionist in a hotel with live-in accommodation. I made new and good friends, and knew it was my parents who had the 'problem'. I realised a few years later that my mother was jealous of me for some reason. I just felt - Let them get on with it. I too had a wonderful mother in law and she saw me as a daughter as she only had two sons. I don't know your age or whether you have your own children.

I also realised in my late twenties that a lot of people seemed to either be jealous of me or feel threatened somehow. I maybe came across as confident but I certainly wasn't.

Your parents no doubt had difficult childhoods so they have their own hang-ups. No human is perfect. Also genealogy helped me to understand my parents, by looking back at their relatives and what happened in their lives. For example, I discovered that my father's grandmother committed suicide (which he never told me), which in turn affected my father's father (my grandfather), and then my grandfather's insecurities affected my father. Families are never straight forward. Take care of yourself x

[lil_avocado in reply to marigold22]

You’re a amazing lady! Thank you so much. I’ve followed you. If you want, you can message me and I can share more of my drawings!

[marigold22]

Thank you, I would love to see more of your drawings. If I wrote a book about my life it would need to be at least four volumes! I have very recently recovered from a 30+ years mega illness, the doctors gave up on me, but I found healthunlocked and joined the Thyroid Section. The army of women who have recovered helped me to recover. No doctor it seems in the UK (& probably most other countries) knows anything about the thyroid gland. I'm having a new lease of life at 66! But over those 30+ years I suffered terrible mental illness too - suicidal thoughts, bad depression, bad anxiety, sleeping for up to 18 hours day or night. I must say goodnight to you now. I really look forward to seeing your art. Big hugs. You can PM me any time you feel you need support. Go Girl - you can do it

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I like your drawing

[lil_avocado in reply to Hidden]

Thank you!