I feel so mentally drained/ill. I hate my life so much right now. The only thing I really want is to go to sleep and never wake up. Life is hard, I know this, but I feel so done half the time. My life is so dull; there is no color. I wish I could just skip 10 years ahead, that way I’d know what’s coming for me so my life isn’t so boring. I want everything to just be over. I know I’m here for a reason, but when I get into this state of mind it’s like I don’t care. I wouldn’t care if I died today, tomorrow, or any time close. I want to up my meds so bad.