I don't know who I am anymore. I feel alone and empty on the inside. Nothing I do brings me any joy. When I'm at work, at school, or at the gym I just feel like a machine, just going through the motions, tolerating things as they come, unable to experience emotion. All I see is black and white; I don't see any color. Now I'm in a deep depression once again, glued to my bed for 16 hours a day and I can't find any reason to get up. All I want is to feel alive again and be happy and to spread that to my family. They are the only two people in my life and I feel like a cancer to them.