I find life very hard. Sometimes too much to bear. I have no friends really as I was very hedonistic till my late 20 's then wanted to straighten out. I also worry a lot about things, too much really. I have a beautiful wife, kids, daughter and grandkids from my ex wife. I have a very good well paid job as a company director and feel I should be happy as I am lucky really but find life so difficult sometimes and sometimes feel I can't cope. I also find it very difficult to discuss my feelings . I have tried councelling but hit a wall. Sometimes I just can't take it and want it to stop.