Rock bottom

[missunderstood2000]

Hi guys

I know i put a few posts but today has been so hard , i have been really low and today i self harmed on my face because i just feel so ugly and worthless , i struggled to do basic naths which then put my mood lower. Im very suicidal but in an inpatient unit so trying to do something wont work but im writing on here because i feel alone like nobody understand i have nobody and the staff are good but i just feel like they dont get it I have given up all hope in ever getting better and for having a future

[missunderstood2000]

SweetNSour i am in an inpatient unit i have been for 9 months and we dont know when im getting out , i have done the thearapy and continue to find other thearapy but nothing seems to work , the staff try to help but i just feel like they cant help because they dont understand and thank you x

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi missunderstood2000, I am so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time and finding your life so difficult. It seems that you have been through a lot and though it sounds easier said than done, please do not give up hope. You must try and hold on to the simple belief that you can get better in time and with help and support from the staff at your unit. Though you say they do not understand, it is very important that you do keep talking to all the health team that are looking after you, explain how you are really feeling and also see if you can be given more therapy sessions. Also you may like to keep a journal or a diary so that when you check back to read what you have written at random, ( and not thought out), see if you can find out triggers to what makes you low and very down and sad and what things might make you happy. The Samaritans helpline is open 24 hours every day seven days a week so you might like to chat to them anonymously. They are very understanding and empathic. Their number is : (freephone.....116 123) or email: [e-mail] )Do keep posting on here as this is a very caring community who would all like to see you start to feel better. You are still very young and you are very brave coming on here to chat about your depression and emotional issues and trauma. That is a really positive step which tells me that you are a strong person and want to feel better, and have some enjoyment in your life which you deserve. You are a worthy person and try and start by valuing yourself so that in time you will grow kinder to yourself and start loving yourself, in order to start some healing for you. We all care about you so stay safe and we wish you well soon again, take one small step at a time.........good luck and very best wishes to you......

[marigold22]

I've been in a psychiatric unit. I met a young man who was self harming, I kept asking him what it was making him like he was. Eventually he told me - it was sexual abuse within his family. He never told the staff or doctors. Is there something you aren't telling your doctors?

[Struggling777]

Hi misunderstood2000 -- I am so sorry you're having such a tough time at the moment. i hope you can talk with some of the staff. I've no idea what the unit is like but I hope some of the staff are approachable. The nature of their job must make them have some understanding of patients going through challenging times. I hope things get a little easier and as MAS Nurse said keep posting on here as everyone cares. Thinking of you.