As you may be aware I've not been feeling great for the last few weeks. Today has been the worst yet. I am unable to cope positively with my life circumstances. I have been trying so hard to make some progress and I feel whenever I get anywhere somethings happens which destroys it all.
I feel pathetic and weak. I am completely alone and without any support except from this site and my cpn etc.
I have lost everything I loved in my life.
I've had some really difficult things to deal with throughout my life. I've picked myself up and moved on. I've tried so hard to learn from my mistakes. I'm scared I've not got the strength this time, or it's going to make me bitter and resentful.
I thought I could endure this, but today I'm struggling. Lots of dark thoughts.