A main problem I have is repressing feelings. I'd rather feel nothing than feel anxious or nervous. An example would be that recently someone asked me out. It made me extremely anxious. Mind you, this is the first time anyone has every asked me out. I kept thinking about it over and over and over again. All the possibilities that could go wrong. I kept thinking about the future and how I don't want to marry this person even though I know this guy only wanted a date and nothing else. But I catastrophes things. I looked into the future and could see myself break up with him. But people keep telling me to give it a try anyway. Even though I feel no connection to him what so ever. Should I feel a connection? I don't know. People date people for no apparent reason and that confuses me. Why do people go out with people they aren't even interested in? They tell me that he "might grow on me" but my connections with guys I like are different. I usually fall quick with guys I end up liking. And it's not just looks. Guys that I find attractive, my friends usually tell me they aren't conventionally "attractive". I usually like very "dorky" and "funny guys", and people say that the guy who asked me out is like that but I don't see it. And then I'm thinking am I just finding faults in him so I won't have to deal with being with anyone? It's way easier being alone. I don't have to deal with anxiety or worry about doing the wrong move. Being alone is so easy. I want to be with someone I truly do but I can't tell if it's me lacking a real connection with this person or if it's me avoiding something. How am I supposed to tell the difference when everything gives me anxiety?