Hi all, would like to say good morning all, but it's not at all good for me today, am really down, well deeper than down finding it hard to get up and motivated,
Just feel like what's the point going on, no one would bother if I wasn't here.
Got suspended from work really set me on my downward spiral and I just keep going down each day seams worse,
how do I start my upward journey again or is there no hope from ever getting back up, Doc has put me on Vensir XL75mg one a day for 28 days but don't think they do much to be honest.
Things just go round and round in my head the voices keep on and on over and over again and again never shutting up, putting thoughts in my mind that I don't want to do or think about, not good thoughts telling me to do things while driving just pull into the path of this lorry, do u turn on the motorway don't stop at this junction just go straight on into that house, not good really but what do I do, I got no one to talk too no one to help no one who will understand me, about how useless I feel, how much of a failure I feel, how much I have let down my family, how I have let down everybody work, home.
Not a day goes by just lately when I don't think about ending it. is it worth carrying on what have I got to look forward to NOTHING.
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Hello mikeski, welcome to this caring community. You are not alone! And you find folks here are very supportive and empathic, many of whom have felt as you do. Negative, depressive thoughts can spiral out of control. It usually takes about 4-6 weeks for Venlaflaxine to take effect, so do give it more time, and don't suddenly stop taking them without your doctor's knowledge. Here's more information for UK users: beta.nhs.uk/medicines/venla...
Also consider chatting with your GP regarding the availability of psychological therapies, which can help you address those negative thought patterns. Above all, stay safe! If you feel you are in crisis, at risk of self-harming or suicide, you need to get urgent professional medical help. Keep a note of the International Crisis helpline in the Pinned posts section. In the UK call:
We are here for you, there's always a listening ear. But do remember (See Community Guidelines) that this forum is an anonymous online community, it is no substitute for professional medical advice.
Hello, I find it hard to open up and talk with people about how I feel, most times I find it easier to write things down, sometimes it helps get things of my chest so to speak, I have always found it hard to open up, perhaps it relates to my childhood and the abuse I suffered
Welcome to the forum. You've just taken a positive step. Depression isn't the dirty word it used to be. Don't be afraid to talk to someone about it, you'll be surprised just how many people are all suffering silently, waiting for the opportunity to talk. There is some good advice above, I believe it would help you a great deal to be able to talk to someone about your past. Conversations with a therapist are private. They are not there to judge you, they are there to listen. All the best from a fellow fighter.
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I'm feeling really scared 
Strange how writing down how you feel helps, its quite nice if someone replies but not necessary.
Feeling really down still :(
Melt down
