I've really had enough of living my life like a glorified Yo Yo.
I cut my arm up yesterday night and spent half the bloody night with my head pounding going a million miles per hour and just feeling shaky, makes me feel like a right idiot with the twitches.
I've just genuinely had enough of this, trying to run my business while knowing at some point normality will disappear and put me back out of action.
All I want in life is normality, feelings of normality, feeling of happiness and feeling of being sad when appropriate and for a reason. Be able to socialize and engage with people regularly, not spending a week getting my social fix and disregarding human contact for months.
I keep thinking I am achieving this but bang my head wants to then turn into a emotional wreck of sadness to racings thoughts that just are intense.
I know these are feelings and they go away but next face it, feelings at that present are what count at present.
Seriously how do people live there lives with this constantly? Its beyond me.