I wrote recently about reaching rock bottom. Maybe I did or maybe not. But I'm still here and I am alive. I thank God for that and ask that we are all blessed today.
That's my expression of gratitude - it's not meant to be overtly spiritual so apologies if I have offended.
The last couple of days have been truly awful for me. But I have learnt so much.
I have learnt that I am deeply valued as a person by other site users and that has really touched me.
It's a huge gift of kindness and compassion that you have shown me. I've only been on the site a short while and I have tried just to be me. To hear such tender comments makes me see that I am valued and respected, by people who hold no relationship to me and have assessed me by my words.
My life has been full of toxic people. I can see that most of my issues stem from other people being cruel, selfish, weak etc.
I really think my pain has finally burnt out all of my blindness. I love people. I think humans are spectacular. I have always been compassionate, kind and understanding. I have put other people before myself since as long as I can remember. I've accepted all manner of criticism and spent most of my life trying to be the person others want.
I'm loving myself. I am vulnerable but not weak. I have strength and tenderness. I use my skills to my best ability for others and for myself. I have fear but I have more love. I will continue loving this world, this life and this amazing species called mankind.
I am no longer lost. I am exactly where I should be when I should be.
I'll stop now as I'm sounding manic!
I am so grateful that my heart has been so broken as I am now finally aware of the power of my heart. So, Life bring it on because I've been bitchwhipped so much I've finally seen my worth and the reason I'm alive.
For any concerned party I'm seeing CPN on Friday.
Love to all