My eyes hurt from crying. My head aches from the moment I'm awake. In fact, my whole body aches, especially my neck and upper back. I don't want to go on. I have a hard time leaving the house. I feel as though I cannot connect with anyone and that I never have. There is, like, a barrier that makes everything feel false, flat.
I have lost my problem-solving skills. I am studying and yet I have no ability to see how to get from point A to point B because this assignment, like any, will have steps requiring cognitive processing.
I am so tired, so tired. This is not the first time I have had anxiety/depression disrupt my schooling. I am tired of the embarrassment and the disappointment. This life does not appeal to me anymore because I don't share its values. Here on earth, wicked people are rewarded. The world is neither just nor meritocratic. I struggle for years, and get little peace. I don't need to stick around to please this stupid world.
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are you at uni? if so it might be worth meeting with your personal tutor and explaining how you are feeling so that they can ensure you get the right support. its hard to admit but it does mean you can get extra time on assignments etc if you need it.
if you have done it before you can get better again so keep going
I always found studying a real pain and I would get stuck if I studied to long. Try and break up your studying into smaller bites. Doing that will help your remember more than sitting there getting more and more brain tied. You can also try and change subject more often that will also help
I suffer a Short Term Memory Disorder and I use rymes and silly thoughts to help me remember things, that pushed short term memories in my mid term memory, that is where you want your study material where you can retrieve it when required
Live is never fair, people who have more seem to get more and sad to say the public in general need to strive even more to get where they want to be. All I can suggest is to be more positive. When we strive for something we appreciate the achieved more
Hello smallscreen, Welcome to this empathic and supportive community. How are you doing today? You've met some of our users, who've given some useful advice.
May I ask like Sarah1111 has, where you are studying, are you in uni or still at school, or in higher education? Also, are you based in the UK? Sorry for the questions, but it may help us advise better. In the UK in university students with disabilities and long-term health conditions, including mental health issues, can apply for DSA (Disabled Student Allowance) a government non-means tested funding provided now through SFE (Student Finance England/Wales/Scotland/NI) and initially contact via your university disabilities team. This funding, can provide not only ergonomic equipment, assistive software e.g. Dragon voice recognition, but also specialist mental health mentor support, dyslexia mentor support, study support etc., depending on your specific needs which would be assessed via a Disability Needs Assessor, backed up with medical evidence from your GP/specialist Healthcare professionals.
I have recently completed a 6 year part-time, distance learning psychology degree with The Open University, and without the DSA help and a specialist mental health mentor, I would have found it nigh on impossible to complete. My mentor taught me study strategies, problem solving skills, identified learning styles e.g Mindmaps work for me in improving my memory, pacing my studies depending on how well I was doing physically and mentally and more. What I'm trying to say is that there is help and support out there, it's just knowing where to access it. Don't give up on your dreams, despite the difficulties, and we all experience them, it's really worth it in the end. If I can achieve a first degree at 60 year old, it's achievable! Speak to your personal tutor, speak to your GP for MH support and get help, don't suffer in silence.
Try and get some rest and get out into the fresh air in the sunshine today, maybe go to a local park, have a cuppa or an ice cream and not think about things. Try some mindfulness and stay in the moment rather than letting those negative thoughts run away with you. Take a look at these links and those in the pinned posts on the right side of this screen:
Thanks everyone for the support. I made an appointment with disability services at my university today. (I am in the U.K.) And I also spoke to my instructor. I hope something good will actually develop from these meetings, but everyone's tips here are much appreciated.
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