Why after a man has hurt us do we stay so long. He can say I love you and i hate you in the same breath. We can fight like we are animaĺs and then love each other the next minute. Have we both been so hurt by someone else that we are scared to really feel and commit. I have trust issues with him. He is mad because i always bring up things I see or feel. I cant leave him. I love who i met he changed. Can he change back should i put myself through the hurt to find out. I read a book about men not being able to commit until he has his life together. I've read so many books. Why am I not able to apply any of it to a relationship? My problem isn't being alone or feeling like i cannot find anyone else. I know i can. I've gotten attention from other but it isnt him I dont care about them. When they do it it feels good for a second but never have I thought that I'd leave him for any of them or I'd never cheat even though I have a feeling he has. He says he wants to marry me. Then the next minute he hates me. I've never said i hated him I dont understand how someone who says they love you can also say they hate you and be abusive mentally. A part of me feels like he has been really hurt by someone but that doesn't make it right. I try to show him love but it never seems good enough. I have no idea why I'm still here chasing him. Wanting him. He told me when we seperate that he misses me. When he buys something we both shared he said he thinks of me. He always tells me he loves me then asks me you know that right. When really in my heart I have no idea because we are different when we handle things. I never want to leave him but it seems like he could care less if i go. He's never changed me but always open to being back together. I have no idea what to do. This last time I told myself its the last time. I will just walk and say nothing I told myself this but can i do it. Why am I giving him another chance? Why cant I leave and never look back.