For the last year, the only thing that has helped to alleviate my depression, albeit temporarily, has been running. The 'problem' is I live in Mid Wales and there is hardly a half mile of flat road anywhere. When things get too hard to bear, I head out into the hills and spend the next hour or so totally exhausting myself - when I get back, I can usually barely stand up. But the blackness lifts and the depression gets knocked back, almost like it's someone else's problem - at least for a few hours, anyway.
I'm 52. I know I could possibly kill myself doing this, but that doesn't seem to be a good reason to stop. In fact, I think I'd be happy just to drop dead on an isolated mountain track, where no-one would find me (and no-one would come looking, either). All I want to do now is run, it's getting to be an addiction. I haven't been to a doctor in years so I have no idea what risk I'm running (no pun intended).
Does anyone have similar experiences of exercise and depression? Am I going completely off the rails here? Or is it actually a good idea to do this rather than take medication (which I am very reluctant to do).