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[Saddoglover]

I feel so alone...and I find it harder each day to not give up on life... It doesn't ever get any easier... Each day is a struggle and all I see is darkness again... The only thing that helps the pain is when I self harm, but now the relief of doing that doesn't last and I find myself cutting deeper every time

[Hidden]

Sorry you are so low, cutting, is not the answer, it is such a negative act and all that happens you end up hurting more and more

You need help and you need to know there are are outlets where you can get help.

Contact NHS HELPLINE on Tel 111 and explain you need help

You could even explain to your GP what you have been doing

BOB

[Saddoglover in reply to Hidden]

I have told them already and asked for help to stop but my keyworker just says there is nothing she Can do to help me stop as it is my way of coping and only I can make me stop when I'm ready f, I really have tried to stop but I can't. And I have been getting help with my depression but just now it feels worse again. I guess it is because Christmas is such a lonely time and only reinforces to me that I have no one

[Biggles22 in reply to Saddoglover]

But new year can be a time of great changes. Are there opportunities to change your job, accommodation or other things in your life?

It sounds like you're in the NHS system to access assessment and follow up. What about groups?

[Hidden in reply to Saddoglover]

What makes you cut?

BOB

[Saddoglover in reply to Hidden]

It stops the pain I feel inside that I can't control and it gives me a weird sense of calm for a moment that nothing else gives me.

[Reposting1 in reply to Saddoglover]

I hope you get some light here . Christmas can be such a lonely time , every one goes off to see their families

[69eden]

Oh you are as deep as me at the moment, you cut to release the steam from the kettle. I do not cut but I do pinch myself so guessing same effects. Got through last couple of days but got to go back too the happy lipstick days at work, if you can find any energy, can you change GP? I am not looking forward to my visit but know if I dont I will get worse. This site has got me through the last week for sure! Ask the question, could be your best question for next year.

[roxynotgood]

ohh so sorry that it has came to this that's terrible you may need some help and advice . I've took an overdose b4 and was the worse thing id ever done but depression do.make you do silly things..... Take care .

[Blueshirt]

I understand; I've been there too. There aren't answers to every question in life. And the answers don't always help either. Be kind to yourself. Try to endure each day. Hold your left hand using your right hand and squeeze; it will give you strength. Good luck

[ediwn]

Hey

Fist you have to stop thinking like that ... change your thoughts . Do you know myself ? I'm a orphan. But I never felt I'm alone. You think too much and feel also too much. If darkness covered to you take one small light with you and solve the problem . Don't give Up and no one gonna put you in the darkness, But your thoughts, attitudes your loneliness those are put you in the darkness.

This is the time you have to choose ..I gonna give you two option

If you select red button and you stay in the darkness place .. If you select green button in your out of the darkness you can make a

Neo from matrix

[WhiteAlice]

I understand that feeling of despair. It is a new year before us, but I understand it probably feels more like "another" year. It seems to help to self hurt, because you concentrate on the hurting action. It occupies your mind and distracts you from the pain. It also is a hurtful, ugly thing that you know you can't do to anyone else, but it makes you feel just a little powerful, just a little bit in control just to do it at all. It's the same wih attempts of suicide. There us a train crissing just a couple of blocks from house. Tbink I have't considered running that gate? Then I think of the enginerr having to see what I've done & he can't stop or I think of how angry and hurt my kuds would be. But you know what really keeps me from doing it? Messing it up. It would be my luck to try to take my life, but instead live maimed or left as a real burden on someone. Why do I feel like giving in in the first place?? Because of circumstances I cannot control but hurt me terribly. Because I give all that I am to others that I love and they are nit people who know how to love or to appreviate others. And I do it again and again. Any if this sounding familiar? I'm sick of feeling like this.

You are not alone. That I promise you. I am here feeling as desparate as you. If I make a change in my life to get some relief, will you, too? What would make you feel better, safer, happier that you are terrified to do? For me, it's to move again. It's a huge job for me, but I will not be happy staying where I am. I hsve to try. If I try my terrifying move, will you?

[Saddoglover]

Thank you all for your comment I appreciate that you took the time. I promise I will try to not give up and will really work harder to get better and do everything I can to change and make my life better in this coming year. And try to change my attitude towards life, try to not always only focus on the negatives all the time(even if that's all I can see in my life just now) Thanks for all your support. And I hope you all a good, happy, healthy new year! Xx