Firstly, I can guess what most answers are going to say but firstly, I hate going to the doctors and maybe Im just over thinking.
My mood swings are out if this world. My bio father told me almost 2 years ago that he has bipolar. But hes also a huge compulsive liar and weve since cut ties. Anyway, as soon as i have a thought i can never let it go. So ive been questioning since, if i have bipolar too.
Firstly, I have s*** life syndrome. Which basically means, everything that could possibly go wrong with my life, has. (Except, i've never experience a close family death or an accident.) My family is full with mental disorders depression, anxiety, paranioa, autism, and a lot of drama. There is drug problems on my mums side (lets not dive into it)
Secondly, what leaves me to believe i have bipolar is ive always had mental illnesses. Mostly, anxiety and depression. Which was all fine until september (I had a crisis) and i felt myself going down. I quit college, but I did all of the coursework (I didnt think i was going to quit until I did). I never have jobs for very long, because one day i wake up Nd my anxiety kicks in. I wanted to go out today, so i ran a bath and then i was having suicidal thoughts. Which feel better now btw.
Anyway, there is a really big trigger that set me off but I wont say what it is. But then part of me is just telling myself im making this bipolar up and nobody would believe me. Ive tried talking to people and theyve just said 'no, i dont think you do.' Maybe im just feeling a bit depressed