A reluctant hello...

[Stewart87]

Hello everyone, for about 8 years I've suffered from I don't know what but everyone here seems nice which makes me feel like I can talk about it.

I've never been to the doctors regarding my feelings as I am simply too embarrassed. Plus I don't know if I can express vocally my issues, yesterday I wrote a letter expressing myself as I feel that it is the only means of which I can get help. I simply don't trust anyone, but now I've written that letter I have a fear that now I will become some sort of case study in a psychology book! I rarely sleep or eat. Has anyone else ever felt like this? I feel like an actor potrying the role of my former self, I work as a restaurant general manager so my job involves people, of whom I have to pretend to be happy to. For years I've studied psychology and mental health trying to figure out my brain and what's going on with it but it o ly seems to make me over analyse every aspect of my thinking. I'm completely cut off from reality most of the time, often wondering if it's actually my life I'm leading. I am emotionally detached and very rarely show feelings.

I don't know what I'm expecting by coming online and turning to you guys? Hopefully I get a reply from my letter I've written soon also. Anyway, just throwing this out there and saying hello. If anything it's given me piece of mind writing this. Will keep you posted on what becomes of me

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Hi Stewart

Sounds like you're having a tough time, but you've nothing to loose by talking on here especially if you find it easier to express yourself through writing rather than verbally, it's also comforting to know your not alone and that other sufferers are having the same kind of battle x

[Robbie138]

Hi Stewart, I over analyze things and as you probably know it's not good,don't feel embarrassed, I'm sure people will be around soon to talk too and help if they can, that's the beauty of this site you can come anytime night or day and write away someone will ans you. Sorry this isn't much help but you are not alone, Take care

[Lizbett]

Hey there. Please STOP over-thinking and analysing stuff. Instead, get a referral from a GP to see a psychiatrist. An experienced psychologist wouldn't ga astray either.

Be well.

[MattBuckland]

Hi Stewart

Welcome, people on here are more than happy to talk to you and listen.

Fair play for reading up on mental health but sometimes you need some support, please go and talk to your G.P and maybe give councessing a try. All different counsellors out there and different techniques but it is worth a shot.

Hope you can find a way. Remember you can turn to this forum as many times as you need to.

Cheers, Matt