I just had a terrible Shock. I didn't get into med school despite a whole year of struggling and tests and hoping and waiting. I thought maybe after such a tough year I would finally get some good news but this happened to me. Now I have a gap year and all I see is a year full of anxiety and not having anything to do but staying at home. And driving myself insane and full of grief. My heart is contracting and I feel heart break and terrible. I cried and cried and I can't feel my head once I took Panadol for the head ache. Idk what to do. How to deal. Happy people make me further depressed. I can barely eat. I can't even sleep without jolting myself awake. I feel nauseous. How do I deal with depression anxiety and heart break all at once?