I'm losing it!!

Hi I have been feeling really low the past few week and keep getting suicidal thoughts

I have never had them before and they scare me . I don't know how to deal and keep getting angry about it and hurting myself.

I'm just so confused right now

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Hi there. I am so sorry to hear that. You can think and hope for the best thing that could happen in your life. Do not stress up yourself. You can read some motivational quotes, have a great food and you can cook for your family! If you are a Christian, you can hit up to the church and pray and read the Bible. I am a Christian and i know how you feel inside as i have experienced that life is tough. I pray for you that you will get heal very soon and you will not getting yourself to feel really low and getting suicidal thoughts! xo

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I don't have any family I'm all alone . I just feel like giving up

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Hm..if you have no family, you cannot feel alone too. You must do something that you want. For example: you love baking or crafting. Go ahead with that. Do not take people comments seriously.Instead take it as an advice and look forward for the great things to happen.

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Hello,Effedup, thats what all of we humans are to a greater or lesser extent. Hang in there for a short while and I and probably others will be back to you hopefully with some advice that will help. Got to dash at moment but will be back.

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Hello

What has caused you to feel suicidal ??. How old are you

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I'm 30. I just don't see anything in my life anymore and just want it all to stop. My head is so messed up I'm doing things I never thought I would

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What is causing your depression, generally something will have caused the condition.

Are you having family problems, or work etc. May I ask please !

They generally suggest that Depression and suicide takes about five problems that cause a kick back that prevents the brain from coping. This of course may not be set in stone

Generally in my case I am disabled with chronic pain, also I suffered depression with loss and family. There needs to be something ??

Are you taking any medications, has your GP arranged any talking therapy or have you been referred for further treatment ?

We always try and help bloggers on these threads it can be difficult for us to really get down to the problems that that are dragging you down

Believe me when I say I tried to commit suicide after suffering for quite a few years I ended up in A and E and the treatments were not that sympathetic to someone who had taken an overdose of Opiates. It has been quite a long time ago and I am still suffering the consequences at home and we loose a lot of trust and understanding

How can I help

BOB

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Hello again EffedUp. glad to see you are not now using your full title. My language can be very bad but not in writing on a site with ladies and sometimes youngsters involved. They should n't be here but youngsters do appear and it is n't really good for them to hear adults with not enough control to resist swearing.

You have n't given us much to go on. Feeling low can cover everything from a temporary low caused by circumstances (not too serious altho it can be painful ) to the heavier burdens of bipolar depressions or even psychotic depressions. It would not be unusual to have thoughts of suicide in any of these cases but if you feel that these thoughts are something more serious you should certainly see a GP. No one can look inside your head and only you can judge how serious they are.

If you do turn out to have a serious variety of depression you'll have to show considerably more courage than being scared of vague suicidal thoughts. Its a far ,far tougher course than that, altho I do understand your alarm at getting these thoughts for the first time. I would n't be too worried though , there would n't be many left in Britain if every one who had had suicidal thoughts at some time actually did it.

I don't understand the modern tendency for self harm (you talk of hurting yourself ).

To me this seems to indicate attention seeking , and is probably some kind of cry for help but I'm not a psychologist. The suicidal thoughts originate in your mind. What are you getting angry with ? Your own mind ? You can't cut that or hurt that. I'm not surprised you are confused. So am I.

I would suggest you make up your own mind whether you need to see your GP, which would probably be a good move anyway. If you need more help I, and others will be here for you but its hard to give useful advice with so little to go on.

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Hi Olderall I have never self harmed but from what I have heard from those who have done it it is usually not attention seeking. It is because the mental pain is so bad that physical pain is a relief. People also do it to 'punish' themselves. x

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nhs.uk/conditions/self-inju... Here is a link x

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Thanks ,Bev. I was a bit ignorant about this. being somewhat rational . I used to be an engineer and we tend to be more concerned with truths than feelings. This can sometimes be helpful, but at other times a more feminine approach is better.

Even so it does seem to be on the increase among young people (not that I have any hard evidence for this) and I do suspect in some cases there is an element of copying about self harm.

I've never self harmed either and have never felt the temptation to , it just seems so irrational to add to one's problems. Mental pain is bad enough , mental pain plus physical pain sounds worse to me.

Just a bit of lack of understanding on my part.

Olderal

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You are welcome Olderall. I hoped the link helped you to understand it a bit. Bev x

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"Hi I have been feeling really low the past few week and keep getting suicidal thoughts

I have never had them before and they scare me . I don't know how to deal and keep getting angry about it and hurting myself.

I'm just so confused right now"

If you have no family or friends to talk to about this in person, I would suggest a helpline. In my worst moments where I couldn't keep the feelings in check I would just talk about it, anything. How I felt my life has been so far, where I felt it was going if anywhere, my family, my past.... and it helps. Just getting it out can help control the cutting at least and will help you feel more perspective on it perhaps. As I don't know much about your situation, this seems like the best advice as it was the biggest help for me at the time.

Once you have these feelings under control inbetween (sorry I don't know how deep or frequent it is) you can start to look at building other things in your life. I found this hard as I usually don't have the will or strength, but it will build as you go.

Try to get people in your life, or something once a week you can go outside for. Build slowly and don't put pressure on yourself. If there is something causing this and you don't know what it is, then you should try changing small areas of your life and see if this helps. Feeling trapped in your current routine or situation can be an issue?

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*Self harm doesn't have to be for a specific reason, it feels more like a need, like it's the only thing you can do to bring the feelings under control. I used to feel like the person who had alot of control over me in my past was under my skin, literally. I felt like I was becoming him, ..I don't know how to describe it. It was frightening.

Holding ice cubes apparently also can be an alternative, but it didn't work for me. Another common alternative I've heard of is to create a ritual before cutting, for example take out all your things (knife, cotton wool, antiseptic etc), then go for a walk or have a phone call to samaritians or someone, or have a cup of tea, and then come back and see if you still want to do it. Maybe you can deal with the physical adrenaline of it by putting your hands to the wall and pushing the wall?

I had years of isolation, I was also literally housebound for the percentage of my life. I'm now in my 30's and life alone. I started to recover from the isolation by meeting people from an anxiety group in my area. It took a long time to get to know specific people, and finding someone I trust, but your anxiety will probably get in the way of your perceptions and ability to relax enough at first too. - That is why it's so important to be persistant. It's such a hard thing to do at first.

From experience, I'd also suggest you don't force yourself on people, for your own sake. This helped me to get used to my own company, my own skin around people when outside. You truly find the best people when you are comfortable with yourself. Just take it easy and do it, but don't chase results right away.

Sorry if this is getting off topic, it's also my first post. I just hope you feel better soon.

Take care

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Also if the person from a helpline you call is no good or ignorant, try calling another or just asking for a different person. Don't get self conscious about asking for this as it's you they're trying to help! I wish I did that sooner!

Good luck!