I know I have a gambling addiction currently and I have been addicted to lots of things in the past. My grandfather and mother passed away pretty close to the same time about 6 years ago. My mom died of an "accidental" drug overdose on prescription meds. I have been extremely depressed and have been drinking and gambling to excess, which makes everything worse. Lately, I have started to pick up on men in the casino where I go, even though I have only been with women for the last 26 years (I am female). One night, about 3 weeks ago, a really beautiful, young guy in the casino came on to me and I decided to try making out with him and I liked it , so I found another guy the next night, and another one last night. They all say how how I am sexy or hot or a great kisser or pretty so I feel light and desired and wanted and it gives me a high and it is like a new drug to me. Meanwhile, I keep losing every penny I have I the casino and drinking too much and I am filled with shame and self-dislike (or hatred). My mother screwed my life over....pedophile step-dad, on drugs, she thought I needed her too much, she cared way more about herself and her men than me. Never met my dad. I am in my 16th year of teaching high school. A few of my friends know how much I suffer and only 2 know how out of control I really am. I want to go back to the casino tonight, pick up on some guy and feel loved/desired for a few hours but I won't cause I am really broke. I believe I have a long depression with these manic gambling compulsions. What should I do?