In a real panic!!!!! Ahhhhh so frustrated.

[Anxietyang]

Hi guys, pretty shitty couple of days with a ton of panic attacks just one after the other. Feels never ending. No sleep even after a bottle of wine (bad I know).

Just venting really and attempting to distract myself from my repetitive unwanted thoughts about how useless I feel for not being able to beat this. I put so much pressure on myself to beat it that sometimes that causes me problems too. Does that make sense?

Have even been physically sick with the panic the last two days and I haven't done that for ages.

So much for the new year eh but at least I got through Xmas.

Considering going back to docs and changing my meds but I dunno. Sometimes it feels like they make no difference at all.

Like I say just venting.

[Suzie40]

Hi Ang

You're absolutely NOT useless! Nobody thinks you are and you certainly shouldn't. You're battling a debilitating condition that never lets up, and a useless person couldn't do that! I'm sorry that it's made you sick. Could it be the extra pressures of the time of year that are contributing to this latest spell?

I think when it comes to changing medication, it's a really hard decision to make on your own, especially without a clear head. Why don't you make an appointment with your GP, and go with an open mind about how best to manage this?

Lucy x

[Anxietyang in reply to Suzie40]

I don't really know what's bringing it on so bad the last couple of days. I have always loved christmas and new year. Think I'm getting caught up in the thought that I may never be rid of this and that is bothering me more and more as time goes by.

I don't know lucy I just feel very tense and panicky and I hate it.

[Hidden]

Hi Anxietyang... Feeling useless is another of the things we have to cope with... The pits ain't it! But you are NOT useless - probably just mega frustrated with a "dictatorial body"....I can say that cos I am peed off with mine too! Like you my panic and anxiety is coming in waves throughout the day - each one like a mini tsunami ... Seems, like you, I am wasting so much of my day fighting the demon too. Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone my friend... It will abate (when it's had enough of mucking about)...try and distract yourself as much a you can...get out your journal and write how all the facets of each 'wave" are affecting you...breathe through those waves cos you are not drowning...just treading water for a little while bit know it will pass. Thinking of you and hoping the day gets easier for you.

PD xxxx

[Anxietyang in reply to Hidden]

It is very frustrating today. Praying its gonna improve before tonight cos really don't fancy another sleepless one! X

[Hidden in reply to Anxietyang]

Hi again...Hope your night isn't sleepless...maybe hide the wine bottle and have a nice warm bath..a warm drink and curl up with a good book (and your journal, if you keep,one). I'm taking my relaxation tapes to listen to as well (Paul McKennas hypnosis tapes..really good and great for distraction use). Good luck with the dark hours. You won't be alone mate...we are all passing through the hours alongside you xxxx PD

[gardengnome]

yes you make perfect sense, I know that vicious circle all too well, I get depressed about being depressed, then I get angry about my reaction, then i get angry about being angry, and so the loop goes on........

I really hope you have better sleep next week, if you can get out into todays sunshine and try to reset your body clock. Simplistic I know, but we are just animals with more complicated brains, and it does help sleep-wise. sweet dreams for tonight.