I hate everything about my life. My job. My husband. My house. Myself. I have tried for years to do things properly. I have worked hard and tried so hard to make things better. I am trapped in a life that I hate. I can never escape. No one can help me! I brought it on myself so that's why I hate myself. Nothing has ever gone right for me and it never will. I am too much of a coward to kill myself but this would likely free everyone else as we'll as me. How could I have been so selfish to have had children? I am the kind of person I hate. I challenge anyone to find me a way out. Can't be done.