A child adult

[FreeMySoul]

I'm, a male, in this world, breathing, for the last five decades. When I look back, I see my myself as a child, extremely shy, lonely, fearful, materially rich, but this richness came with the father's shoutings and scolding. Then comes the teenager me: secluded, having acute sense of ugliness, fear of outside world and gatherings. I'm still that child and ghe teenager.

[Triedalot]

Me too. You're not the only one. I'm 56, female and in a relationship but feel alone. It's really hard work to try to work through patterns that started so long ago. I'm slowly trying to learn to slow down my thoughts which fly by so fast. Food and tv are my "comforts", although maladaptive. My message is simply that you're not the only person (although it can feel that way) who is experiencing this.

[Aimingfor106]

I highly recommend the book Growing Yourself Back Up by John Lee. It's an easy read and it changed my life.

Lots of us have had childhood traumas that penetrate into adulthood without being acknowledged and treated.

[FreeMySoul in reply to Aimingfor106]

Thank you Aimingfor106 for the recommendation. I'm obliged.