why am I always sad?

[Horrorfan13]

I’m here because I don’t know where else to turn right now. Over the last few years I’ve struggled with turning my life around, yet anytime a glimmer or period of good happens somehow feelings of hopelessness and deep sadness creep back in and destroy any shred of good I’ve managed to create in my own life. I feel at the end of my rope and am barely hanging on now. I’ve now lost someone I care so much about because of how bad my depression has crippled me, my finances are spiraling down the toilet, and I can’t find one thing to be happy about right now. My body feels on autopilot but my emotions are a million miles away. Is there anyone like me who is there or has been there? What did you do to get out of that state of mind? I’m lost right now.

[raisin44]

I have had mdd and anxiety all of my life. But my divorce in December last year made it worse. I can’t seem to come out of it. Doctors are trying me on different medications for both but nothing is working yet. I tried ketamine but it didn’t work for me. I am so sad and depressed. People without depression are so lucky. My life feels worthless and now I am not sleeping well so add being tired to this. I just want to be happy again .

[Horrorfan13 in reply to raisin44]

I’m sorry to hear about your divorce I recently came out of a relationship and am struggling to come back from it. I didn’t want it to end, but it became too much for us both with my mdd. Every day now I am fighting to feel a shred of joy and remind myself to keep going, and it’s felt like the Olympics trying to do so. You’re not alone and thank you for sharing, here to listen should you ever need to share. I know what it’s like not having many if at all people who can listen and relate to what you’re feeling.

[Marysblue]

I'm not completely out of it but I walk everyday, keep a gratitude Journal, take 5-HTP and some low dose meds. I have sought out new doctors and new therapists for a year now and tried dozens of medications. I'm still searching. Practicing mindfulness helps and trying to stay in the now.I'm sorry about your breakup, I know it hurts but it will pass over time.

I try to write down a few things Im grateful for no matter how small. It helps. I also watch meditation, mindfulness, depression videos on YouTube and reading the book The body keeps the score.. about trauma.

[RbnFerris in reply to Marysblue]

The Body Keeps The Score was a key insight into why I was holding on to fear and anxiety . My present circumstances did not match up with the fear and sadness I felt - reading this book brought me to a awareness of the physical effects of each emotion and I was able to release the emotion as something from a past experience . Thank you for mentioning this book 😊

[raisin44]

I have major depression and it has been made worse by my divorce. I feel so sad and hopeless even with my meds . I don’t know what to do.

[Singingmoose]

Sorry to hear what you are going through. I lost my sister in March and just a few days ago my father-in-law. It’s been a rough, very rough year. I haven’t been on any meds. No energy to find a different dr nor to go to an appt. It’s been very hard. Plus other stuff is going on all at the same time. I did finally get in touch with my former therapist and will start seeing him again. I also attempt mediation and reading books. I’ve lost all interest in playing games, so it’s been challenging to pass the time away.

[Serene_dream]

Yes I am the perfect replica of yours, it is very hard when the sadness episode arrives, one feel like in deep grief without any hope of getting out, in these times you need to take deep rest, eating in moderation, and every day jog is must, full body exercise help allot, extrema stress can be fight with light cardio when blood and breathing starts to pump high the anxiety depression go away.