Time passes so slowly…

[DangLifeisHell]

The only thing I really look forward to is going to bed. I can’t wait to sleep permanently in peace. I’ll be 34 years old in December. Been married since 2015.. No kids and thankful but sometimes wish I did to help me stay distracted and have motivation to keep going. But thankful because I know it’s hard work. I mainly stick around for my dogs. My fur babies. Sadly. Bored of life and not motivated nor ever having fun doing anything really. Did a puzzle and almost done with it, been working on it for the past few days. Not excited to work Monday. Felt good one day out of the week then it fades. Sigh.

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hi Dang,

I live your story. I have three little old lay dogs and I keep going for them. I wasn't blessed with children and am single for a long time. I just had an epiphany! Weird- time does move so slowly. I recently took up fixing old mechanical clocks. I wonder if subconsciously I am trying to make time move forward? twisted... Anyhow, I've been fighting it for about 40 years. When it is bad, I focus on small achievable goals like a single load of laundry completed, or clean the bathtub, I like to change the bedding once a week.... whatever you do, celebrate that and suck up and savor those good feelings. Don't pressure yourself to have big dreams you are supposed to do. Get through each day, wake up and think about what you are grateful for. My brain is sad, but I have all of my body parts so I thank them, I have a place I own and it is safe and pretty I am thankful. My dogs and I share love, and excitement, snuggles....

[DangLifeisHell in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Thank you for your response. That’s pretty cool that you have the skill to fix old mechanical clocks. Love the twist and irony of it as well. And yes, as of lately I’ve been doing small things such as laundry, taking dogs for a walk, going on a hike, and ready to find my next puzzle once I finish this one. I accomplished my goals of getting my masters, worked with passion for 10 years to the point I lost myself; bought and sold two homes; traveled to several beautiful places. But I guess after achieving and doing it all, nothing else brings that same high in life anymore. Just living it one step and day at a time while being thankful for it all at the same time. I appreciate you. Plus I moved very far away from my family and friends. So trying to make new friends. But have been putting myself out there with talking to other people in public. Just havnt made an actual connection yet.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to DangLifeisHell]

Cool. Clocks are a puzzle too. I got my degree and worked as a teacher for a decade teaching at risk youth. I loved it. I worked in the music industry for another decade and loved that too. You seem to be in a place of change and something you probably haven't thought of is coming so enjoy the rest and transition. Oddly I am in a fairly new community away from my family and friends. I've been working on meeting people but am happy by myself too. It took me years to get to this point. 😎