it is hard for me to ask for help as i have always been the one giving it .
maybe too much as well according to my therapist. i just want no one to hurt like i do. I cant battle this depression alone and please if anyone can support me for i dont know how to live anymore. i feel like there is literal darkness injected in my mind. but i was never this person. i feel dead. and i want to stop existing. i cut my self at times. i get into reckless accidents in order to hurt myself. even writing this my right hand is injured because of a bike accident. i just want to feel happy one more time. i have been a sensitive person my whole life but that doesnt mean i am weak . i cant be weak. i need to breath. i just am not sure how long i can take it anymore.