This is my first step to hopefully regaining some sanity

[Whatsthepoint2023]

Not sure what to say here. I have had a constant battle with depression. Now it is getting debilitating. I am missing work and lying to others about what's going on with me. I know my family doesn't understand and expects me to just carry on as usual. I have other concerns as well with finances. I cannot afford to miss work. Me seeking help for depression may bankrupt me. Vicious circle, what a ride!

[Dolphin14]

What you are going through is very difficult. I'm so sorry. Trying to preform the duties required at work while dealing with depression is a heavy burden to carry.

I'm not sure how I did it but I was able to do my job for a few months. Then I came home and crashed with my symptoms. I wore a very different hat at work. I loved my job and I'm amazed I could " switch gears" when on duty.

This is all a situation of " if you haven't walked in my shoes" It's very difficult for people to understand how we are effected.

We are fortunate to have HU. A place where we can come and use our voice with people who do understand the journey.

Wishing you the best

🐬

[LilyAnnepuppy]

But without help it is too much for me to handle on my own. You’re right, it is a vicious cycle.

I identify with you about the debilitating nature of the illness. It’s so difficult to motivate myself to do anything. I just try to put one foot in front of the other and do whatever is next. Somehow I get through the day.

Thank goodness for my therapist, psychiatrist and meds. And having other people to talk to.

[jnelson66]

I see your Canada. University of Toronto was one of the pioneer institutions with deep brain stimulation (which I received and cured my disease) look into that and see if you are a candidate for the procedure if they are still doing it