Is this all life will be?

[Jkjr519]

Since I don't remember laughing or smiling, happiness being my own feeling, is that all life will be? Has anyone found their laughter and smile after they lost it?

[Moongazer9]

Yes I feel for you! I have found that I have lost the ability to laugh or cry. Nothing seems funny anymore. I don't know if I'll always feel like this, but right now I see no end in sight.

This is despite having an online psychiatrist and psychologist.

Personally I do not like all the teletherapy there is now......even when you live close to the providers.

Just this morning I was making a list of possible other therapists. I prefer in person meetings over the teletherapy platforms.

Unfortunately I feel that even after the pandemic ended many providers have remained remote.

I changed from my in person therapist to a online one after my insurance changed.

I am truly thinking that should look for other providers.

Even for a fee I feel that an in person therapist brings much more of a benefit to therapy. Sad that mental health has to be this way.

I do not feel close to my online only psychologist. I have never met him face to face and I'm finding therapy all pretty useless now. It lacks any true structure .

I also have decided to decrease or just stop my medication......I now take an absolute minimum of it.

My psychiatrist doesn't take any insurance and i am really questioning his treatment.

It can be very discouraging to truly find a psychiatrist and or psychologist today who i feel is truly helping.

Even for an out of pocket fee I think that an in person provider would do more good.