sorry for the long post, for the last 5 years I have experienced a number of life altering symptoms suggestive of autoimmune/lupus, I had some blood test results come back as positive for APS and also suggestive of SLE. Unfortunately at the time they also found I had latent TB so I have had treatment for that for the last 6 months tha with a view to commencing hydroxychloroquine as an initial step once free from TB.
As I finished the TB meds I went into a flare up and have been unwell for the last 6 weeks, really struggled with pain, fatigue, Malar rash etc (probably the worst flare up yet)
I have felt that unwell on occasions in the last 6 weeks that I had considered going to hospital as I literally felt that I might not make it thru the night. I’ve felt that unwell I have had writtem letters to my children in case I didn’t wake up.
I’ve had the first appointment with rheumatologist ( never seen this one before) last week and he has told me that I actually don’t have lupus as all the blood results are ok and that he doesn’t know why I have these symptoms. He doesn’t want to look into any other potential reason why I am in so much pain or why the flare ups come etc.
I ended up going to my local urgent care tonight as I have been feeling dizzy with blurred vision and they have also just said well no it’s not lupus and we do t know why you are experiencing these problems. No plan has been made to investigate things further or from a different angle.
I feel like the past 5 years have totally been a blur. Like I have made up all my symptoms. I feel guilty if there is nothing wrong, maybe I should have been more resilient or braver with the symptoms and just got on with things.
I experience daily: nerve pains and joint pains ( widespread), Malar rash with burning blisters on face, involuntary jerks of limbs, what feel like mini seizures in the night, fatigue, photosensitivity +++, finger nails are so painful and like growing extra skin underneath, hair loss and bald patches, psoriasis type sores on scalp
If I get any type of infection or virus, I go into a flare up where I struggle to mobilise with the nerve and joint pain, fatigue +++, feel like elec currents being passed thru my body, this is really painful, I’ve had to take so much time off work as a nurse, my husband and children have all been negatively impacted by my health in the last 5 years,
I just do t know where to turn now, I am so upset and feel that I must be imagining all these symptoms and I have put my family through this for nothing if there is nothing wrong with me.
All along my GP has called it lupus and APS and probably sjoergens but it seems like it is non of these accordto the rheumatologist.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated, feeling like I am at the end of the road with it all and running out of energy to fight