Hi, I am new here and a little anxious posting.
I am desperate and wondering if anyone has ever gone private in the UK and if so if anyone could recommend any good rheumatologists? I feel I have run out of options and private is the only way forward. I just feel so depleted and upset.
To give some context, I am just tired. I have been unwell for over 20 years since I was in my teens. I have in that time had some negative experiences with the NHS (no disrespect meant, just sharing my experience). I have been formally diagnosed with UCTD (undifferentiated connective tissue disease), Raynaud's, Bowel issues, fibromyalgia (and multiple other things). I have been verbally told that I have a positive ANA with Hep-2 and also they have said positive ANA- fine speckled nucleolar. I have been told they cannot deduce what disease I have as the ANA test does not make a shape that matches anything so rheumatology suggests that I will develop lupus OR I have a brand new disease. They have suggested immunosuppressants but they have now decided not to do this as I keep getting multiple infections. So basically I just get left. I get seen once a year or once every 2 years where they do bloods and that is that. Meanwhile I get worse and worse.
I was told that they suspect secondary Sjogens disease and that I have signs of arthritis but no official diagnosis as of yet.
All I know is that I am going downhill rapidly in the last 5 years and I feel like nobody listens to me. Im not even 40 and already I feel this disease has striped most of me. I have had the same rheumatologist for over ten years. I often do not see the same person twice and have to explain everything from the start so often dont get time to discuss the new issues or have continuity. I often feel like I am just being 'managed' and left. I never feel like I am heard and validated. About 5 years ago I stopped being able to walk far at all- this came on out of nowhere. I erupt in daily rashes and get severe burning and itching when I try to walk alongside rashes. I am bruising frequently when I do not hit my skin. If I try to walk I can get severe pain alongside the rashes etc. I started to have urinary and faecal incontinence. When I discussed this with the rheumatologist at that time they were insistent this is mainly fibromyalgia. I disagreed with this. I had been put on fibromyalgia workshops with them and I understand the symptoms but the things I was going through were not included in Fibro. I was so angry that I told them that I didnt feel they were taken the autoimmune side seriously and that a lot of what was going on felt more related to autoimmune and importantly for me was getting worse. I still was not heard so I wrote a letter outlining all symptoms with photos to back everything up. I get multiple rashes everywhere daily, rashes on my cheeks that now never go, severe fatigue, recurrent infections, hair loss, mouth ulcers, issues with light, joint pain, I also now have telangiectasia on my face and legs and arms. There are a load more symptoms but this outlines the gist of some of it. I got to see dermatology via rheumatologists for the multiple types of skin rashes and issues. Dermatology diagnosed about 6 separate skin conditions and when I asked if this is linked to autoimmune I was told immediately not at all- nothing to do with it. I think my jaw dropped as I knew this was not the case from my readings with autoimmune and skin reactions.
To cut a long story short, I got to see a different dr thanks to a GP for allergy issues. It just so happened this person was also a specialist in autoimmune (but not a rhematologist). They were lovely and I went over all the symptoms and could not believe the difference- they really listened to me. I went over all the photos at their request- they said they felt it was clear that I have mixed connective tissue disease. They wrote to my rheumatologist and expressed their views. For a short time, I did feel that the rheumatologists were more understanding but when I spoke to them this year they went back to saying most my symptoms are fibromyalgia- I feel like this is all I will ever get from this team and I just can't take it anymore.
I feel I just want to try seeing someone privately who may actually listen to me. I cannot afford it but I can save up and it would be 100% worth the money.
I understand it must be hard for medical teams to diagnose rare conditions and I am okay with not knowing for sure what this is. But I do want to be listened to.
Thank you for any reply.