I need some help. How many of us have mental disorders? Besides our obvious depression and anxiety we get. I mean actual diagnosed disorders?
I have been diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, Panic Attack Disorder, Agoraphobia and Cyclothymia. Terrible mixed bag let me tell ya!
My mother who also has lupus, has never been diagnosed, however strongly, very strongly exhibits many traits and symptoms of borderline personality disorder.
I understand this is a touchy and sensitive subject, to our egos. But I am very curious, the actual amount of lupus sufferers who also suffer with mental disorders.
If so, are they lupus related? My walk in Dr constantly reminds me that lupus affects the brain and it's "issues" as he delicately refers to mental disorders.
Me, personally, I received these diagnosis between the age of 34 and 36. I was late into my 36th year when lupus was confirmed.
Currently I am battling my disorders solo. No medication, no doctor and a healing amount of self talk and positive surroundings.
My cyclothymia, which is a low grade constant depression mixed with low grade periods of mania, is taking over my current life. I am beginning to see my patterns. And I am wondering if the stress from these, sometimes 10 mood swings a day, is feeding into the lupus?
I chose not to take medication because they make me feel angry, volatile. I am an aggressive person on my own and with the medication, I become Godzilla. So I opt for the mind over matter way of dealing with my disorders.
I am at a crossroads in my life and I have about 4 weeks to decide. Thus, my opening question, and your answers and how you have learned to cope with the disorders (if you have them), would help provide me insight on making a major life change...again, moving 3500kms across the country.
Please do not be shy. Be open and honest.
Thank you, sincerely