I am coming under increasing pressure from friends, family and doctors to take time off work but I am really reluctant. I worry about the what it looks like at work, but I am pretty sure this is in my head and not a really worry to other people. The thing is, the Cerebral Lupus is active at the moment and I am really struggling putting complex ideas together and assimilating information. Things that are normally my speciality are suddenly very difficult. I get dizzy and struggle to read (although, this could be the steroids), I find concentrating on one thing difficult. But I don't understand what taking time off is going to do for me.
It's not like this is a cold and the body will make it better... My doctors are on the case but what if it never clears up and this is how I am going to feel from now on...? How will I get back into work? I guess I am concerned that if I have a week off and don't feel any more stable in my head that I won't want to come back to work. I am scared of not being able to work I guess, and the idea of not being able to do my job to my normal standard feels a bit like defeat.
Has anyone had a week or two off with cerebral Lupus and noticed a significant change? Has time off helped? My work are trying to help to make work easier for me, I suggested working from home one day a week (that would save me 3.5 hours of travel) but people are telling me to push further... Any advice would be gratefully received, I just feel so guilty because I know that if I had a week off I would be gardening and walking the dogs which feels wrong for sick leave....
thanks in advance