I think I have finally got to the point where I am completely 100% over Everything!!!!!!
Although I was really against the idea of anti-depressants. I think this is the only option left for me in order for me to get by.
I don't think I even care if I turn into a zombie, (my personality and everything about me has been stripped away anyway) so if I can get by with a fake smile and see bunnies & sunshine then so be it.
I am sooo sick of constant having 'Split Personality Disorder'. I Cannot stand work,(and hearing the same old pathetic rants over the stupidest things) and just people in general. I just wanna scream f*£# & leave me alone!
I have Zero tolerance & Everything (I mean Everything annoys me) even my partner has said the same. He feels I'm always on his case, even for the smallest things..
I know there are others out there who have it worse off, and feel selfish for complaining but I am really struggling mentally.
I'm seeing a therapist in London, but need to find something closer to home, but even that is gonna be too much energy...having to go to go through everything again! mehhhhhhhh