Hi I'm new on here and I'm a 49 year old man living in Scotland , ive been struggling with low mood and emotional problems for a number of years for which has stemmed back to my childhood . My job as a bus driver was getting me down and the feeling of not being able to connect with people on a emotional level which has ruined many of my relationships... It got to the level that I was self harming in the mornings and evenings the pain felt good and took me away from all my feelings of life . For some time I just wanted to die as I couldn't see my life improving and the thought of leaving my 14 year old daughter stopped me , so she has been my safety blanket . I finally got the courage to see my local doctor and luckily enough she was new and had the time to sit with me and listen and even went pass our 10 minute slot , the doctor signed me off work which was a great help and referred me to see a psychiatrist , I got an appointment within a week and having to talk to stranger about my inner feelings was hard and good in a way ....He said I had Anxiety / Depression and prescribed me with Fluoxetine and I'm to have afew sessions with a CPN , its been 7 weeks now and ive seen my CPN several times plus my doctor . The self harming is under control for now and the medication has kicked in making me abit more alert but very tired ....Not sure wot the outcome will be as my problems stem back to childhood and something happen to me but may never find out , It would be nice to be able to face life with a smile ...I'm aware people out there have real serious Depression and Anxiety but I just wanted to share my story and for the great help I have received in the last 2 months thankyou .