Whats happening really!!

[Iamdipru]

I dont know exactly what’s happening in my life now, my parents are seperated i am completely into drugs and i dont know what is really happening in my life now right now the only way how i find happiness is through drugs, iam not sure whether this is a state of depression or some mental disorder because ive never dated someone or never thought TBH(tobehonest), So the current problem is Iam completely fighting with my mom, at a point i have even thought whether this is my mother or not. I ve got the best mom in the world that is what i was saying till an year back and now my house has turned out nto chaos, i dont know whether i should i cry or leave this place and iam a boy so i should be strong right and iam unable to peacefully spend time with my friends because ive got this sudden raging kind of behaviour when i get pissed and these days i get pissed off really fast and that too for silly reason. Long story short:-

I came home last month to see my mother and we had a small argument and it ended up in a really big fight so that that situation i took my bag and left back to my college after returning back to college I dint text her or called her untill the day before coming back home as it was my sem break so i called my mom and asked for some money,she gave it without any hesitation and it was totally peaceful. The next the morning when i came home i dont know what went through my mind I suddenly started ignoring her like literally i came home slept I didn’t even mind her like right after seeing her and i didnt eat food for the next 1 day like i didnt even utter a word but my mind has changed totally like how is it possible. This is just a sneak peak into my current situation. What can i do now i dont have anyone to talk my dad is on the other side of the map brother another place mom another place and me somewhere like seperated i dont really know what’s happening,

[kenster1 Moderator]

hi once the drugs take over its harder to give up especially class a drugs.speak to your gp and request counselling to help you in that department.its not your fault that your parents separated so please don't blame yourself.can you skype your dad and brother to keep in touch that way.

[Iamdipru in reply to kenster1]

Thankyou for your wonderful kind words🙏🏻 maybe ill try doing that even though my dad isn’t interested in all that 🙃

[kenster1 Moderator in reply to Iamdipru]

hi no worries.yeah get your brother to set up skype for your dad he would probably love it as it keeps you in touch.

[Iamdipru in reply to kenster1]

My brother and father doesn’t live together🙁

[kenster1 Moderator in reply to Iamdipru]

sorry but you never know might be worth chatting with your dad about it.i took drugs for years one day I had enough gave up without help or support but it made a big difference to my life.

[Iamdipru in reply to kenster1]

Right now i find happiness and relief through drugs and i know that’s dangerous but i cant stop myself from consuming it. The main reason why iam unable to stop it is because there is no one to control me,i mean my parents aren’t there no one there

[hypercat54 in reply to Iamdipru]

You still have your mother there. If you are going to college you must be at least 18 so you are technically an adult now and need to learn how to control yourself. Self medicating with drugs or alcohol is very common and does help in the short term. However in the long term it makes things a lot worse. Have you seen a doctor to try and get some help? How about counselling? x

[MarkFL]

Good sign you are looking for help.

Detox is the first step.

Go ahead and look for professional help.

[isla1951]

I probably could be your grandmother but worked years with parents dealing with children into drugs. I can only tell you, the fact you are writing means you are smart and aware of your problem. Drugs most of the time are harmful, more than beneficial, I don't know what type of childhood or parents you had, one important thing to know is that getting close to nature can be amazing, we can learn more of the wonder of birth, and life! I believe some of us unfortunately have parents that they didn't learn how to deal with parenting, because they probably suffered too, and are only capable of doing the best they know and that sometimes is enough to makes their children worst. If you are attracted to the mountains, flowers, birds, ocean, storms, you might be able to obtain positive energy and enlightenment to see and understand that any living thing is precious! And if it was placed in this world is for a very important purpose, only that sometimes we need to travel the right path to see it. If you would like to continue communicating I will be glad to write and read you post, hoping you can value your life so much that you won't want to put any poison in it.

[isla1951]

I probably could be your grandmother but worked years with parents dealing with children into drugs. I can only tell you, the fact you are writing means you are smart and aware of your problem. Drugs most of the time are harmful, more than beneficial, I don't know what type of childhood or parents you had, one important thing to know is that getting close to nature can be amazing, we can learn more of the wonder of birth, and life! I believe some of us unfortunately have parents that they didn't learn how to deal with parenting, because they probably suffered too, and are only capable of doing the best they know and that sometimes is enough to makes their children worst. If you are attracted to the mountains, flowers, birds, ocean, storms, you might be able to obtain positive energy and enlightenment to see and understand that any living thing is precious! And if it was placed in this world is for a very important purpose, only that sometimes we need to travel the right path to see it. If you would like to continue communicating I will be glad to write and read you post, hoping you can value your life so much that you won't want to put any poison in it.

[Mijmijkey74]

You say you have the best mom in the world " that is what you were saying a year back" can l ask if a year back you were taking and completely into drugs? And were your parents separated then? Something happened a year back impacting you negatively. Does your Mom or other family members know about you taking drugs? Are they supportive of you, and if non of them know then will they be supportive if you tell them. It does seem it may be the drugs making you feel and react as you do. Please speak to your gp/doctor or someone you trust implicitly. You need helg and plenty of strong unwaivering support, therapy, cbt and respite. Please speak to your gp/doctor or a trusted tutor/teacher and be honest and open. Don't be afraid, we all lose our way sometimes, and feel confused and concernd by even ourselves. Speak with someone who is in a position to help you work things out. You are not alone. Good luck.