I'm almost crying as I am writing this. A month ago my employer fired me 2 days after letting them know I was expecting. Since then I looked frantically for a job but till this moment there is simply nothing out there in my field. There are however a few jobs in night shifts which require lifting capability and being able to stand up all night. I think it would be unreasonable to expect a pregnant woman can do that. I already have a child and I'm slowly running out of money. I'm getting close to 11 weeks of pregnancy, or 12( I do not really know how many). My partner has a small income which is not enough to cover rent, food, bills etc so I feel if I am not going for abortion and not taking up the night shifts we will end up homeless. My pregnancy will become visible soon and how can I take care of 2 kids when I hardly care for 1?
My pregnancy was unexpected. I was already on birth control and still it failed.
My mental health has not been great( understandable why). I feel adoption is not an option as there are soooo many kids already waiting to be adopted and I wouldn't wish on a child to go through the pain of feeling abandoned. And even if I keep this child how am I going to pay for the childcare in the future? I feel it's a heartbreaking decision I need to make because I would love to have a child, but I cannot endanger my other kid and risk having him or both of them placed in foster care and all that.