ICU breakdown

[Pilar0617]

I recently went to urgent care because I was having difficulty breathing. I have a history of pulmonary embolism‘s eight to be exact and yes I’m still alive. Urgent care ordered a stat CT scan. I went to the hospital and they did a D dimer and because it was normal they did not do the scan and they said that my hemoglobin was 8.2. They said I would need a blood transfusion but then change their mind saying you could walk around with a hemoglobin of eight. I asked them to run My iron and it was only three so I was admitted overnight and given to iron transfusions and sent home I still had the same pain that took me to the hospital. I then went to see my GP and he said I’m not sure who put you on my schedule but I don’t have time to see you. Thus he let me go and never listen to my lungs. I then went to my pulmonary doctor and he ordered a steroid thinking I had pleurisy. I then went to CGI right after and he said it was rib pain that I was Feeling. I went and took the steroids for one day and felt a little better the next night however I woke up and it was like Someone was taking an ice pick to my chest. I tried to shower and was going to drive myself to the hospital but had to call 911. I went to the hospital and was told I had an ammonia, empyema, a collapsed lung and to pleural effusion’s.I was in the hospital for 16 days and put on life-support. I don’t remember probably 11 of the days and I’m having a terrible time with this. I was on 50 L of Vapotherm and still couldn’t breathe. Does anyone have any suggestions how to get over running this like a loop in my head. There were mistakes made I had a chest tube and they made a medicine ball ball and it released to 700 mL of gunk out of my chest I had a thoracentesis as well however in the hospital they gave me my blood thinner and they weren’t supposed to which delayed my procedure for a full day and that’s when I ended up on life-support with the doctor saying I would not live if I did not go on life-support. Somehow I made this decision to say yes when I kept saying no. I just feel kind of lost..

[Sepsur]

Does the hospital do a follow-up clinic?

What I found comforting was that my experience was fairly bog standard for an ICU encounter.

This is a good guide

icusteps.org/assets/files/I...

[Stayloose]

I am sorry you have had such a rotten time. Have you thought about seeing a counsellor who will listen to you without defending anything as a hospital would. You have clearly been traumatised by your experience. You could be helped to stop this loop repeating. It is probably your brain trying to make sense of stuff that isn't sensible.