I want to be healed soon

[Noodlecatpiano]

I am getting better than I used to be. I think I should rest a lot since that helps a lot. I do feel bad that I’m not getting enough done for other people to accept me. I am scared to rest. I have had so many people reject me after my breakdown. I really am pretty grateful because I didn’t know how those relationships weren’t supportive. I couldn’t believe it was that bad. I do feel like I want to hurry and do everything but if I rest, it will be better. I can do a litttle at a time and it would be more effective for me. I used to do many things with ease. I still can’t believe this is my life. The painful things taught me so much very useful things. I do believe in a higher power now. Why am I writing this on here? I don’t know. I want people to feel loved and appreciated and that there are others out there. I can’t get out right now though. I’m sensitive and helping. Thanks for this site that I can feel like I am contributing and communicating or doing something productive. I hope I will feel better and then I can do more physically and mentally. It was really shocking to me to see how the world is. Can I really rest? Why not before? Did I really have to go through that? No. I don’t want to again. I must learn to rest, I guess.

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

Hi

Resting is something we all need to do and probably more often.

I'm so glad you can see an improvement in how you feel. That's wonderful news.

There is no rush. Do what you can when you can. You will get there

We are so glad you are on the site.

🐬

[1949liz]

hi it is a very good thing for your body and your mind to rest it helps in the healing process which is so important to both body and mind. I do speak from experience I don’t know how you are feeling.

It’s easy to say to you, don’t worry, but what is the point, because you will still worry, it’s a natural thing, saying to yourself, I must do this I must do that. All I can say to you is there is always tomorrow.. Take care, caring for yourself, is the importance of healing, body, mind and soul. God bless, Liz. 🙏🌹

[peacefulandcalm Encourager]

I do too, I understand what you are saying very well. Rest , I know, but I feel cptsd a lot and difficult to rest. trying to rest. I relate very well....<3

[Noodlecatpiano]

I actually think I need more rest again. Thanks for all your support!

[Lindyloo53 Volunteer]

absolutely you can rest. Healing is hard work and rest is an important part of that healing process. Keep pressing on to your recovery between rest.

[BrainIsFull]

Let yourself rest💚💚💚

thanks for sharing. It really can help you and others to connect here, online, even when connection in the real world isn't possible right now.

[SavingGrace Administrator]

Hello Noodlecatpiano.

Thank you for sharing your words conveying your journey. They have resonated with me. That feeling of why/how me and then how/what can I make of this now - for my life.

I know what you mean about resting - and yet rest is so key.

I think it is important to be set this fairly strong/straight with yourself. I have not and, I find myself flitting back and forth, half-committed/half jumping backwards to protect myself.

I agree with Dophin: be more like the tortoise and less like the hare. That's my motto for this year coming actually.... learning to slow down... it will still win me the race.... and I will learn to take in so much more in the course of that race also.

you are safe now - and learning to accept that will be a big part your journey perhaps. It has been for me.

Being able to still share you joy and encouragement with others is really brave and beautiful, also. ..Especially, if you have had negative relationships. I'm sorry that you went through everything that you did - and no, it is never justified... But I do hope that together, here for example, we can make sense of a common, better purpose - that goes beyond cruelty and fear, hate and abuse.

I hope you feel welcomed here on this forum. Rejection whilst being ill...it is so harmful, unnecessary and cruel.

I was rejected because of being ill by my uni friends - many years ago now, but I will always be aware of how their reaction/judgements changed my life potential and direction unequivocally for the worse.

Stay strong

Everything you always knew you were and are... you are still. Don't let anything or anyone convince you otherwise.

Best wishes and blessings

Saving Grace.

[Noodlecatpiano in reply to SavingGrace]

Thanks everyone. Still actively working on resting. Just wanted to check in. Same thing as before but just a bit better in a sense because I got a medical test over with. I’m exhausted. In bed already the earliest I ever have because of the early to bed early to rise saying… make a man healthy wealthy and wise. It’s not even dark yet so let’s see. I keep trying to be active. Feeling guilty for existing and bothering others. I actually love these people a lot but I don’t understand. They don’t seem angry. They seem sad. This will heal in its own time. I don’t want to affect them. I want to do what is best. Feeling a bit conflicted as well which is normal when I am tired. I felt so bad after talking to them last night. I feel guilty when I try to block them. I hope for space tonight. Far away in dream land. Not scared now. Looking forward to this.

[Noodlecatpiano in reply to Noodlecatpiano]

Okay. Still here. I’m taking advice from this site and allowing it to be as it is.

[Nathalie99 Partner in reply to Noodlecatpiano]

Hi Noodlecatpiano,

I hope you can rest without feeling guilty about it. It is important to restore your body and mind, it helps build resilience.

I am glad you are here and checking in...

[Lindyloo53 Volunteer]

we are very hard task makers on ourselves. Mine came from poor self image. I told myself to be half way as good as others I had to be three times better than. Do three times as much work as them to my own detriment.

You know rest helps you for now so give yourself permission to rest.

You are worthy and worth it!