Hard for me to admit this, but I have a huge fear of seeing the doctor. I have had an ongoing illness for over 20 years, and went to see the doctor years ago and I never went back because the tests he wanted to do was too invasive - it freaked me - the thought of it traumatized me. It actually is a daily obsession of having it done.
I am now seeing an alternative practicioner to approach the condition from another way. The funny thing is whenever I have faith in the alternative practicioner and not think about the western doctor - the condition improves - but then a part of me shames me for never going back to the western doctor - basically calling myself a failure for not having courage. It's been a vicious circle for over 20 years with this issue.