I'm new to this forum. I've been in Therapy since 2010. I spent 6 months with one T, then 4 years with a new T. I've had complex PTSD since I was a kid but only diagnosed this year, after 2 Hospital visits. Before that, I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which didn't seem right, and has since been dropped.
Last year I finally started to feel 'normal' a few times. However, when I went back into my triggers after feeling this way, the pain was excruciating and I became unstable again for the first time since I began recovery. Before that, I was almost blissfully stuck permanently in my symptoms. Now I'm back in my Ptsd big time, though slowly improving.
Has anyone who is further along on their journey experienced this? I know that recovery is slow and often unpredictable, but it seems like I've taken some pretty massive steps backwards. I have only felt 'normal' a few times this year. I'm losing hope and thinking that this grounded 'normal' feeling isn't possible to have long-term.
I'd also be interested to hear about peoples long-term experiences of Somatic Experiencing. I'm just learning it now and hope it's what I've been looking for.