..so i went to my g.p today went through stuff with him,told him i don't want to continue living like this ,he was really nice to me,explained about dwp and he said he would be happy to write a letter on my behalf if i take down to the surgery who he needs to be writing to , in hindsight it may be better if he could give me the letter,but he seems to want me to take a addresss and person to write to down to him,either way he will support me , ( not quite sure whether he needs to send it to the original decision maker who acted apparently on the "medical health proffessionals" advice(is that atos???) i personally think it should be addressed to the original decision maker,because there is no point writing to atos as it has gone past that
the g.p did say that he believes i am too ill to work ,and he is willing to back that but he can't force them to change the decision but is willing to be my advocate, and after next week when i have been to manchester to have a injection for my pne problem we will confer and see what can be done to make me feel less depressed etc. and pain control..he said also as i am now weaned off the pregabilin that is also still giving me mild withdraw effects as it acts on the nervous system and is a horrible med to come off,he said that all my feeling of hopelessness and despair etc...however wasn't all to do with the withdrawal(i wish i had never tried pregab for the pne pain but i did), he said that can even at coming off a low dose still attribute to a bit of my problem but was in no way the whole picture...got to go via the rheumotologists recommendations thurs for a pelvic x ray and a left should x ray to see if there are also other factors to consider, he agreed with me(unlike the other lousy g.p) that it is not possible to suffer chronic pain all over all day and not be depressed,apparently not many people with chronic pain do cartwheels with joy everyday!! so i am not alone on that score... so in the back of my mind now i don't feel completely helpless and like my boyfriend says wit the dwp we won't give up ,as that is not a option ,not til we have exhausted every avenue ... off for a lie down as am totally shattered,but i thought i would let all you lovely people supporting me and have given me guidance what point i am up to...