Ok so after a long time of doctors saying there was nothing wrong with me, all tests came back clear so of course that meant I was lying and making it all up in my head!! I have found an amazing doctor, and he said yes you do have fibromyalgia, said my other doctor was an idiot as some of the stuff she said to me was completely untrue (regarding medication and symptoms etc). Then he said I also have something called T4! which is apparently something to do with the 4th vertebrae apparently. He has booked me in again to see him in a few weeks to have a chat about it all and he said he was going to show me some stretching exercises to help
So I have had a few days to let it sink in, at first I was just thinking how great it was to finally have a doctor that was listening to me and had me diagnosed in 20mins when I have spent a year trying to get other doctors to understand how bad I get. But now it is starting to sink in that I have this for life now I am only 28 and a bit scared about dealing with this long term! I have been so focused on getting a diagnosis that it was such a relief, but the relief is starting to wear off and turn into a bit of panic as to how this is going to affect me in the future. I am probably over thinking it, thinking too much into the future and just need to deal with it day to day but feeling bit scared and confused now. Not how I thought I would feel.